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The Preacher’s Corner By Rev. Dr. Milton Winter Dylan Thomas lines don’t help insomnia The
other Sunday morning as I was arriving before church, I saw my friend
Bob Bowen standing in the pulpit, reading one of my old sermons. I had
left my notes there from the week before. I confess I was a bit
“startled” to see someone else in the pulpit — not because it is “my
pulpit” or I am possessive of it — it is just so unusual to see another
person in that spot. I guess I view “church” from the pulpit, whereas
others see “church” from the pew. That is a habit and perception I
think we preachers ought to challenge. I teased Bob that if he was
going to stand up there, perhaps he could also deliver a sermon, and I
could enjoy being in the pew like everyone else that day. Bob
is a kind man who opens and closes the church for us on Sundays. He was
in the pulpit to turn on the little light I use, so that I can see the
fine print of the Bible from which I read. Mark Miller and Ki Jones
always have the front doors, where I stand to greet people, open and
ready when I come down the stairs after the service. It is those little
touches that make a minister feel welcomed in his own church. It
is a very gracious and humanizing thing these people do, especially as
I find myself advancing in age. Print in Bibles, novels, newspapers,
and magazines gets smaller and smaller, doesn’t it? Younger people do
not seem troubled by this, as people are now fully content watching
ballgames and movies on their tiny “smart phones.” There
was a time when I would have scoffed at the suggestion I might lack
either the physical strength or capacity to do all I wanted and needed
to do. There is a kind of humility that time imposes. That is the most
gracious way I can put it. The other night when I could not sleep, a
line of Dylan Thomas annoyed me as it repeatedly went through my head:
“Do not go gentle into that good night. Old age should burn and rage at
close of day. Rage, rage against the dying of the light.” The lines are
a great incentive to “keep on keeping on.” They were not a remedy for
the insomnia that was aggravating me at that moment! After
Bob had finished making the pulpit hospitable for me last Sunday
morning, I stood where he had been and realized that my pulpit has
taken on an almost homelike quality. Not only was there the one sermon
that he was particularly interested in, but notes for eight or ten from
previous Sundays! I guess after church I do not go back to the pulpit
and collect my things, and so papers and Bibles and paper clips and
miscellanies of every kind have collected in the sacred desk, rather
like my office and den at home. A thorough cleaning and rearranging was
in order! We all have our work spaces, and the
pulpit is definitely mine. It is as homey as can be, but one should not
become too comfortable in such a place. One scornful soul berates
preachers as speaking “six feet above contradiction.” (My pulpit is
only about two feet above the floor, but the point is well-taken.) I am
still reminded (with appreciation) of the comment by a lady who
responded to a sermon I preached attempting to explain the Presbyterian
idea of “predestination.” She greeted me at the church door with these
words: “Milton, I enjoyed your sermon very much, but I do not believe
one word of what you said!” Such is our right (and even our
responsibility) in a voluntary organization such as the church. Thankfully,
in my tradition at least, there is no expectation that people have to
accept everything I say in my pulpit. But at the same time one is
dealing with dynamite. The minister’s words can, and occasionally do,
inspire great interest, comment, and even opposition. When
I was a young preacher, I often got bad cases of the “butterflies”
before giving a sermon. That gnawing fear in the stomach is most
disconcerting, and I dreaded it. A mentor of mine told me that one
should never enter the pulpit without some degree of nervousness, for
just as (according to the current saying), there is “nothing casual
about business,” so there ought to be nothing casual about church and
the things of Christ and salvation. On Sundays I
pray that God will turn my fear into fire. I am still not “used” to
preaching. I think that when I do become “used” to it, it will be time
to retire. I’m not quite there yet! I am, however, more grateful than
ever for those who assist the preacher’s task, with preparation,
attention, expectation — and yes, even critique.
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